Spring is in the air and it reminds me of all the times my mother waited for planting season to arrive. Seed catalog in hand, she would walk the perimeter of the latest house we were renting and plot all the ways she would turn one little yard into a massive veggie producing garden.
Every available inch would be cultivated and every vegetable imaginable would be planted. My mother never once seem to have self-doubt concerning her ability to provide for her children through the efforts of her own making. I often wished I could glide my way through my own life the way my mother managed to sail so confidently through hers.
I have dreamed of being an author most of my life. When I was 6 years old I started writing poetry. By age 11, I was winning local writing contests, and by the time I graduated high school I was working on my second volume of poems as well as writing essays and editorials for my high school paper as its editor. I was well on my way to fulfilling my dream of seeing my name on the cover of my own book one day.
Then self-doubt entered my life. In my early 20’s I allowed someone else to erode my belief that I was any good at this writing thing. And when those tentacles of self-doubt started to wrap itself around my spirit, it affected all aspects of my life. My relationships. My weight. My writing.
I put away my pen and stopped writing for over 25 years. I never realized how crippled I had become by self-doubt until one morning almost ten years ago when a shocking miracle happened and the passion for writing finally returned to me. Now I continue to write, having managed to get published a few times and I’ve learned the secret to stopping self-doubt in its tracks!
As long as you keep moving…keep reaching for the stars…and never give up on YOU, then those moments of self-doubt no longer have the power to destroy your spirit!
Now go out and conquer your own self-doubt while having an awesome day because you deserve it!
International best selling, award-winning author, Donna L Martin, has been writing since she was eight years old. She is a 4th Degree Black Belt in TaeKwonDo by day and a ‘ninja’ writer of children’s picture books, chapter books, young adult novels and inspirational essays by night. Donna is a BOOK NOOK REVIEWS host providing the latest book reviews on all genres of children’s books, and the host of WRITERLY WISDOM, a resource series for writers. Donna is a member of the Society of Children’s Book Writers & Illustrators and Children’s Book Insider. She is a lover of dark chocolate, going to the beach and adding to her growing book collection. Donna’s latest book, LUNADAR: Homeward Bound (a YA fantasy), is now available in eBook and print form from Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Books A Million, and other online retailers.
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Great reminders; thanks, Donna!
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Hi Becky and welcome to my blog! I’m glad you found my post helpful…
Thanks for stopping by and come back any time!
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